we are trying our best to get into a routine. with 3 kids in school and trying to keep little miss in, for at least 6 weeks post-op, it's a bit of a challange. days go by and I try my best to keep up with them. i have to say that i have never felt more out of control than I have this past chapter of my life. i know this is a blog to update on darla jane but part of my feeling of craziness is because of her condition. i can't help but worry about her future even when I know that what ever happens it will be ok. There are just so many variables that I feel like i could get swept away at any time because I am not grounded. i think that because I'm not so busy with all the things I used to be in regards to taking care of her i have the time to think about our situation. which, at this point in time, is not helpful at all. I dont mean to complain or be a debbie downer. i just am needing to get this out. This post actually sat, mostly written, in the draft box for over a week. to post, or not to post was the question. but because I haven't been posting I felt like i needed to explain why.
but guess what happened...Darla Jane turned 6 months!
She is 16 1/2 lbs...58%tile!!! Which for a CHD baby is AMAZING!
But she is still on the shorter side, 24 1/2 inches...11%tile
and her head circumference is 16 3/4 inches ...46%tile.
Keep calm and hang on! I can't imagine to worry and anxiety you must have, but know you have good friends and family round every corner to help you out always! We love you and Darla Jane and the whole crew.If you ever worry just look at those stats, Darla Jane is amazing!
ReplyDeleteforget keeping calm let it out! Even if you keep calm around the kiddos let it out on the blog, that's what they are good for! I swear I am sane because I write. If I didn't the outlet of words on paper...or cyber paper...I would seriously be in the nut house. And quit doing things that drain you dry. Change diapers, make mac an cheese, don't do ambitious things, watch movies, sit when you can, nap when you can. Don't worry too much about laundry and just try to do less. It seriously helps. I have had to let a lot go just to keep it all together. And don't be afraid to ASK for HELP! Just walk out your door and yell HELP!!! I'm sure someone will come running. :) Good luck!
ReplyDeleteThis definitely isn't a downer post, this is your life right now and I think you handle it better than you realize. Having a young baby is hard no matter what and you have so many more variables added into the mix. Reading your blog and looking at sweet darla and what a fighter she is makes me realize how precious each moment is. You never know what exactly is in store in the future but do know that you have people around you that can help, and Heavenly Father is just a prayer away :) and I think Brittney is right, Darla is a healthy baby...short and chubby, the perfect combination!
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